11/09/2009

This was an an entry saved as a draft on 11/09/2009. I'm finally publishing it: 1/30 2010
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I've had new high heels for a while now. They were a gift from an internet friend.



Is it possible to take a break from wearing panyhose, even though my wife doesn't want sex? Well, all I can say is, "Maybe". Is that as close as I'll ever get? Well? Maybe. I just haven't felt like it would be a good idea to show (express) how strong my fetish is.

I may be at the point where I can talk to her. In other words I may be able to tell her how much I like wearing pantyhose. To tell her how stong my sexual urge is. She doesn't understand how strong sexual desire can be. How can she? She's never has a "horny" thought. At least not that I'm aware of.

What do I do? I keep going through the everyday motions. And, I try to let her know just how horny I am, without going too far and pissing her off.




Lately, I've been wearing only a pair of panties in front of her (as opposed to pantyhose and panties), without her saying a word about my fetish. She knows I have a stash of pantyhose that includes many pairs of panties, leotards and (as far as I know) one pair of high heeled pumps.

Checking In

Why so long between posts?



There just isn't enough time in the day. That's why.



I don't have free alone access to a computer. If I had a couple of hours everday where I could do what I wanted to on the computer without the fear of my wife walking up and looking over my shoulder, I would. But, she's not working. Therefore, she's always home.



So, I can't just start surfing porn, or, editing video of myself wearing pantyhose, because she could walk over and see what I'm doing.



If I happen to be adding a blog entry, and she walks up behind me, she'll see it. So, I leave it alone. I spend my evenings reading news stories and other things that if she sees. she won't "find out" about just how much I'm fucked (compared to the norm) up sexually. (from her point of view). How many guy's like surfing the web for a pair of great legs in pantyhose and high heels, even if those great legs happen to be a cross dresser guy? Don't get me wrong, I'd rather see a sexy woman/girl than a guy. But, there are some guys who look damn good in in hose and heels.

I've always been attracted to legs, and that's what I try to emulate in my videos. The "anonymous set of pretty legs". It's what turns me on.

I'll tell you more about the high heels I've been later.

An online friend bought them for me.

Checking In With New High Heels

I just wanted to add a quick note as to what I've been up yo lately.

I was given a very nice gift of new high heels by a special someone from the Internet world. I picked out a sexy pair of high heel stilettos from an online website. The last few weeks I've spent most of my alone time trying to wear them without my wife finding out. She knows I have a pair of black pumps. That's not a secret to her anymore. But if (when) she finds my new ones, I'm going to have a little explaining to do.

I thought I'd add a picture of myself wearing my new heels. I hope you like it.

I Don't Hide My Fetish Anymore

On the weekends we usually just hang out at home. We drink and enjoy each others company. It really is that simple. Moneys tight and it's not worth risking a DUI, so we stay at home.

The thing is, after I get drunk (and her as well), I try to talk her into sex. She doesn't want it and never has. She ends up going to bed. I'm left alone. I'm drunk and horny and my wife is passed out, cold. Literally.

What do I do? I slip my panties off and slip on a pair of pantyhose. These days, usually a darker color, like taupe. I'll also grab my black pumps, which are kept in the cabinet under the sink in "my' bathroom and wear them in the living room with my dick hanging out of my crotchless pantyhose.

I used to make sure that I took my pantyhose off and stashed them back in their hiding place before I crashed after my many beers. These days, I'll probably go to sleep on the couch wearing my pantyhose. Also, there's a chance that my black high heel pumps might be lying on the floor next to the couch. Imagine your wife waking up some Saturday morning and finding that scene in front of her. When mine does. She doesn't say anything. She doesn't even bring it up later.

She didn't used to use "my" bathroom at all, which is is the one in our "master" bedroom. Hers is the other one. About a year ago she started using mine on the the weekends. By that time my pantyhose and panties were already firmly planted in there. For six months or more, I've kept a few pairs of my pantyhose openly in my bathroom. She doesn't say anything.

She's happy not having sex. I really believe that each weekend that goes by and we don't have sex, is a victory for her. And, I just push the pantyhose cross dressing thing a little more.

Damn, I like high heels. They make my legs look sexier.

Panties, Panties, Panties

Well, I never really thought about having a panty fetish. But, I guess I really do. These days I've found that I have a lot more panties, than pairs of pantyhose. It's just that my wife doesn't object to me wearing panties. She doesn't really say anything about the fact that I have over one hundred pair. I keep buying different colors. I like the high cut panties. I don't wear lacy frilly ones. Just the high cut style. If they wear white you think I was wearing underware made for a guy. But if you saw me wearing hot pink or red or teal, you'd realize that they probably aren't men's ubderware. I actually think they look good on me.





My wife is still trying her best to avoid actually having sex. And she's succeeding. One thing that she has started doing on a semi regular basis is wearing pantyhose for me on the weekends. She's also letting me take pictures of her wearing them. So, because she's been wearing them, I've stopped puhing the issue of me wearing them in front of her, for now. But then again, I haven't stopped letting her see me in pantyhose either.





Usually on the weekends, we stay at home and have a few drinks. It's so much safer to drink at home these days. No risk of a DUI.





Now, I'm one of those people that can easily lose my inhibitions (if I have any) when I drink. My wife on the other hand seems to be able to maintain her inhibitions whether shes's drinking or not. Please don't get me wrong, we get along great. Except for sex, that is.





A typical Friday and Saturday night starts like this. I take a shower and shave my legs. Then, I pick out a tee shirt and a pair of panties and maybe a pair of my slouch socks and that's it. That's what I wear to have a few drinks and watch a DVD or some television with my wife.





Usually, she starts out wearing shorts, but I can usually get her to take them off. So picture that. A married couple hanging out together, both wearing only tee shirts and panties and getting a little (and sometimes alot) drunk together. One of the many ironic things is the fact that I have more colors of panties than she does, a lot more. For example, I have several different shades of pink panties, including hot pink. While she doesn't even own one pair of pink, any shade.



At first she she hated the idea of wearing pantyhose at all. It's not that she'd never worn them. In fact she told me that before we met, she used to wear them to work every day for quite a while. But over the last ten years or so, the only time she's worn them is for a wedding or a funeral, you know, the "dress up" occasion, certainly not something that she'd considered wearing around the house just to give me a cheap thrill.

But she doesn't seem to mind when I ask her these days.

More later.

A Little Extra Video

In case you've just stumbled upon my blog. Let me tell you a little about myself. I'm a guy that's been frustrated for a long time. How do I deal with this frustration?

I'll show and tell you.

When a guy wants sex from a woman and isn't getting it, what does he do? He jerks off. There's no better way to put it. He masturbates.

It's at this point that everyone suddenly go's off in his own direction. How do most guys masturbate? This is where almost everybody becomes very secretive. People don't talk about how they like to masturbate.

Well, let me tell you. Some guys like to put on a pair of women's pantyhose or panties and some like to add a pair of five inch stiletto heels as well. This helps them get off.

I'm one of these guys.

With my past problem on You Tube. I feel that is video is too much to post there.

I hope you like it. If so, let me know. Leave a post.

Thanks.

I'm Still Posting Videos

I'm still in the process of re-posting videos that I've made in the past that were lost when my original You Tube account was shut down. It's slow going. It's surprising how long it takes to re edit and upload them. I'm re editing them so that I can try and avoid having them "flagged" again. I'll admit that some of them pushed it a little, but I still feel that they shouldn't have been flagged.

Also, would you believe that it takes around twenty minutes to upload a video that only lasts a minute and a half. It really does. A 20MB video takes around 20 minutes with my DSL.

The above picture is one that I took last weekend. Lately my wife has been letting me take some pictures of her wearing pantyhose and high heels. She really does look good in them, but she hasn't quite learned how to pose yet. I'm working on that.

Last weekend I took some shots of her and then after she went to bed, I took a few of me. I've actually entertained the idea of showing her some of my pictures, but I just don't know if she's ready for that yet. Also, in this picture, I'm wearing her shorts. Even though I think I look pretty good in them, she might freak out if she saw that I had put them on.

Also, I've been considering joining Facebook to see if I can attract more viewers to my videos. If anyone has any suggestions or experience with Facebook, I'd like to hear from you.

Since My Last Post

Sorry it's been so long since my last post. It's just that when I lost my original YouTube account it really set me back. I had just started advertising my pantyhose. That is, I had just decided to sell of some of my worn pantyhose and some of my lingerie. I rather sell them than throw them away and I felt that it could also give me a little extra money to buy some new things. I can't just go out and pick up new pantyhose and panties because money is tight and plus, my wife pays the bills and she sees every little expense. Another thing is the fact that I'm sort of running out of room. I've got a lot of panties and they're actually piling up a bit. I've been waiting for my wife to say something about them, but she hasn't. Yet.

I did have several people email me asking about my pantyhose. I was actually surprised when a few of them not only wanted to buy my pantyhose, but they also wanted me to get off in them first. But to top it off, a couple of "fans" offered to pay me to make a video of myself wearing the pantyhose so that they could watch me jerk off in them. I really hadn't expected that. But the idea really turned me on.

So I decided to charge one price for a pair of my used pantyhose. Then, another price for a pair of my cum stained pantyhose and yet another price to make a video of myself getting myself off in pantyhose. Honestly, it takes a lot of work to make the video. Don't forget that I'm married and it would all have to be done without my wife knowing.

I decided to do it. I just didn't realize how long it would take, It really turned out to be a lot of work and sneaking around trying not to get caught is not that easy, considering that it was all done while my wife was home asleep. There was no way I could do it during the week, so, it had to done on the weekends, which is traditionally my surf the web for pantyhose porn time.

I also ended up discovering that when it came time to record my videos on cd's to send out, my computer drive wouldn't work. That took me two weeks to fix.

Don't forget that I am back on YouTube. The last couple of weekends I have been adding some of my old videos tn my new account: n2collants

So that's why it's been so long since I last posted to this blog.

I'm Back On YouTube Under A New Name

If you're reading this you may know that up until recently I had over fifty videos of myself wearing pantyhose posted on YouTube. I'm thinking I was on there for at least a year and a half, maybe two years. I had over 1600 subscribers and had met a lot of really cool people that are also into pantyhose.

Then, my videos started getting "flagged" and the next thing I knew, my account was shut down. Permanently disabled.

What really gets me is that my videos aren't crude and don't show any nudity. They just show a guy wearing pantyhose and high heels. My thinking is that if you don't like them, don't watch them. If you do like such things, I hope you enjoy them.

Of course this happened right after I rented a post office box. I rented the box so that I can try to sell some of my used pantyhose. I'd like to sell some instead of throwing them away so that I can afford some new pantyhose and and maybe a new pair of stiletto heels or two. I'll talk a little more about that later.

Since my videos were shut down, I suddenly didn't have any way to communicate with fellow pantyhose lovers. I do have a couple of people that want to buy some of my pantyhose, but there seems to have been a hang up with the post office delivering their mail. It hasn't been a good couple of weeks in the pantyhose department for me lately.

To get my videos back up and running on YouTube I had to come up with a new screen name and a new email address. I actually did come up with a name and YouTube accepted it, but when I entered my email address for the account, YouTube immediately closed that account because recognized my good ol sh2wph@yahoo.com email address. I quickly realized that any new account would have to be linked to a new email address.

My new YouTube account name is: n2collants

My new email address linked to that account is: n2collants@yahoo.com

But, I would rather have people contact me at my usual sh2wph@yahoo.com address.

Suspended From You Tube

Well I woke up early this past Monday morning and checked my email and there it was, a suspension notice from YouTube. It said that I was suspended from uploading any new videos for two weeks from the time I acknowledged the email. The thing is, I couldn't log on to YouTube because it is a suspended account. So I don't know if you'll see sh2wph on YouTube anymore.



You see, about seven or eight months ago someone "flagged" one of my videos. I still don't know why, only which one was flagged. YouTube told me at the time that basically I was on probation for six months. The six months came and went without any other problems.



Then, one or two weeks ago I had another video "flagged" and I was put on another six month probation. It just so happened that I was reading some of my YouTube comments and clicked on the home page of one of the people that had left me a favorable comment on one of my videos. Right there on his page was a comment from some nut job telling him, "Just to let you know, I'm reporting all of your friends".



So there it was. Obviously it was a comment from the guy who flagged me! Someone was pissed off at someone else and decided to take it out on other people.

Now I don't know what to do. I don't know whether to concentrate my videos on Xtube or try an open another YouTube account. There's a chance that the suspension will be lifted in two weeks, but I'm not exactly holding my breath on that.

I'll figure something out and post it here.

More Videos and Trying To Sell My Pantyhose

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My Pantyhose, For Sale?

If you've seen my latest video on YouTube.com you probably know that I've been advertising about selling some of my used pantyhose. I decided to do this for several reasons.

First off, I hate to throw a pair of pantyhose away. Even if they have runs in them, they're still soft and sexy and feel great to wear. So, I've ended up with a cabinet full of pantyhose. But people always want more, and that includes me. What do I want? I want a new pair of stiletto heels and some new lingerie. The big problem is that I don't have the money to be able to buy anything new without my wife finding out. Like a lot of guys, I let her handle the finances without a word. Believe me, it's better that way. The downside is that she knows when I spend any money and what it's being spent on. She would not be happy if I spent $40 on a pair of new sexy pumps for myself. So for me to able to buy anything, it has to be behind her back.

Over the last couple of years, I've had a lot of people ask about me sending them some of my pantyhose or panties. Why not? I've got a lot.

So the idea was born.

If you'd be interested in buying some, email me at: sh2wph@yahoo.com

Include, "Buy pantyhose" in the subject line.

Another thing, some guys have asked about me making personalized videos for them while wearing pantyhose and playing with myself. People actually want to see me jerk off in my pantyhose and send them the video and the pantyhose.

If you'd be interested in that let me know.

Leave a comment on this blog and email me.

My Trip To N.C.

I was excited the entire week before I left for my trip. I love my wife, but I could hardly wait to get away for a couple of days. It's not that I don't love her or anything like that, it's just that I wanted to have some uninhibited sexual time to do whatever I wanted.

I knew a couple of things before I left. The first, I would not be meeting any fellow pantyhose lovers and, that the sooner I arrived at my hotel, the more time I would have to play.

I had hoped to find someone else that was into pantyhose in the Charlotte area. I searched the web and left a couple of messages on message boards. I did have a couple of responses, but no arrangements had been made. I only received a handful of responses and none would work out. Also, I don't have a laptop, so once I left home, I no longer had access to the Internet. On top of all of this, my job was going to keep me busy all day and part of the evening on Monday. This would be followed with an early start on Tuesday, with a departure in the early afternoon. I'd have to check out of the hotel around 7 am Tuesday morning. Go to work and then get an early afternoon start on the road to get home. There would be no room for pantyhose play on Tuesday. It was over!

Nose back to the grindstone and reality Tuesday morning! I was anxious to get started.

It turned out that the weather was fantastic. It was shorts weather. Since my wife was still asleep when I left, I decided to wear shorts and pantyhose for the trip. I've worn pantyhose with shorts a couple of times before, but never for a long drive like this. I wore beige mist No Nonsense Almost Bare pantyhose. They match my skin tone perfectly. If someone saw me, they probably wouldn't even realize that I was wearing them. I laid out a pair of jeans and sweat pants on the passenger seat in case I needed to change quickly and off I went.

After a couple of hours on the road I had to pee. I found an exit with several fast food restaurants and stopped. What I did next was a first for me. I decided to walk in without changing, pee and get back on the road. So I walked into a KFC wearing my shorts and pantyhose. I was a little nervous, but no one noticed. I didn't think they would.

A couple of days before I left, I bought two pair of new panties. They didn't cost much and they are one of my favorite brand, Vassarette high cut microfiber. They feel fantastic They are just a little too small, size 5, but I had to have them. Also, on the way I stopped at a Wal Mart and bought two pair of thongs. One royal blue and the other hot pink. I was disappointed with them because when I got to the hotel room and tried them on, they weren't tight enough. Size 7 and loose. I decided right away that I wouldn't keep them. I'd return them and get a refund later. If you hang around and watch some of my video, you may see them laying around in the hotel room in the background. They really were hot colors. It's a shame they didn't fit since my wife doesn't complain when I wear panties in front of her.

As soon as I arrived in my room, I set up the camera and shot some video. All in all I shot almost an hour of video total and a little over 100 still pics. Honestly, I wasn't overly impressed with the video this time. Some of it is okay. This time though, most of the new video can't be posted on You Tube. It's too graphic. It'll have to be on XTube since. What I'm trying to say is that my dick shows in most of it.

I got off both nights I was there, but, I only have video of me cumming the second night. The first night, it kind of got away from me I was so excited, plus, the way I did it is really hard to video without showing my face.

The video I'm showing in this post is some of the first video I shot when I arrived on Sunday March 8, 2009. In it I'm wearing a pair of my new Vassarette panties.

The photo at the top of this post is taken from some of the upcoming video.

Click on the "PLAY" button below to see a little tease video of me, arriving in my hotel room.

Anyone Want To Meet In Charlotte 3/8/09?

Someone that looks slim and trim in a pair of suntan pantyhose and black pumps. Are you out there?

I'll be in the Charlotte NC area by the Interstate next Sunday evening. Email me with a pantyhose resume.

Do you have any pictures?

Am I the only one that dresses up in pantyhose when given the chance?

A One (Maybe Two) Shot Deal

It looks like I'm going to the Charlotte NC area for a two night stay. A business trip.

March 8 & 9, 2009.

It's one time deal. My wife doesn't even know yet. But, I'm not looking at it as a total business trip. I'm looking at it as an oppourtunity to be alone and wear pantyhose and high heels, and maybe meet another pantyhose lover, even if it is a another man.

I'll have a hotel room that when I lock the door behind me, I can do anything that I want. My wif won't be around. I can escape the regular world and can act on my own perverse thoughts and wants. For two nights. I'll arive on Sunday afternoon or evening and depart sometime Tuesday, hopefully, early afternoon. That way, I can get home, sleep, and resume my regular work week on Wednesday.

Rest assured that when I'm alone, I'll immediately strip naked, then put on a pair of pantyhose. Next I'll probably have a cigarette and strut around a little. I'll take a few minutes, then probably shave my legs at the sink, then take a shower. I'll open a beer and pull out my cameras. I'll select yet another pair of pantyhose (probably a darker color), then, sit down and think about what I'd like to do for the evening.

Of course I'll be horny. I'll be dressed for it.

What I'd like to do is meet a fellow pantyhose lover for a beer, a quick "get to know each other" at the local Hooters, and then go back to my hotel room, have another beer, and wear pantyhose in front of each other and a camera.

I have an eye for the camera. A Directors eye. If I may.

I honestly don't have great legs like a woman or girl. I just know how to point a camera at them and make them look somewhat sexy. I'm a photographer and a voyeur, with an eye for sexy legs, even if they're my own my own, dressed up to look sexy. In a pair of pantyhose and high heels. It truly is all angles.

Almost any guy could put on a pair of pantyhose (with shaved legs) and high heels and pose in a way that would be sexy in front of a camera. A simple still picture.

So what? It's a kink. A fetish. My belief is that it's harmless.

Anyway, I'm going to stay at a major Hotel for two nights on March 8 & 9, 2009.

I"d like to spend a few hours with another guy that wears pantyhose and looks good in them. Haha, heres a laugh, I'd like to spend the evening with a guy that has a little skinny dick, like mine, looking good in a pair of stilettos would top it all off.

Dreams

New Photo's

I had an opportunity to click a few pictures and thought I should post one of them. These pics was taken Sunday afternoon while my wife was asleep. It's kind of a thrill walking around in pantyhose during the day when shes home. Of course I can't do it in front of her, things haven't progressed to that point. In the one on the left I'm wearing coffee colored Leggs Sheer Energy and on the right I'm wearing suntan Leggs Sheer Vitality. This is my first pair of Sheer Vitality. I have to say that they feel fantastic. They're a little more sheer that the Sheer Energy. Well worth the extra cost.

One thing I've been doing lately is actually taking some leggy pictures of my wife. I've been able to talk her into wearing pantyhose for me a few times recently and posing for a few pictures. Believe me, shes got nicer legs than I do. Actually she's got great legs! She hasn't quite got the hang of the posing aspect of it yet, but I'm working on it.

I'm still thinking about trying to sell some of my used pantyhose. Please, if anyone is interested, let me know. Send me an email: sh2wph@yahoo.com.

People Want My Pantyhose

It absolutely boggles my mind that someone would want to buy my used pantyhose, but there seems to be some that do. Guys see my videos and want to be with me, that's cool, a turn on even. But, they ask me to send them my worn, even stained, pantyhose. That made me think a little.

I've always hung on to my "old" worn out pantyhose. Pantyhose that have "runs" in them and that are stretched out to the point of not being pantyhose that are not being worthy of being show quality garments any longer.

I've even had guys want to see me cum in pantyhose and then send the pantyhose to them.

Again, I can understand that. To most, it would seem weird, but I do see it. What should I do with these pantyhose. Throw them out with the trash?

A lot of guys are too embarrassed to walk into a store and buy pantyhose to go home and jerk off, in or on. Actually, I can understand that too.

Are you afraid to walk into a store and buy pantyhose? Do you need someone to send you pantyhose in the mail?

Let me know. Maybe we can work it out.

We could help each other. I need to buy some new pantyhose and high heels to help with my videos and pictures. The thing is, I can't afford to go out and buy a new pair of pantyhose whenever I need them to shoot more video.

So, what I'm asking is this: If you want to purchase some of my used pantyhose, or, just need someone to mail you some pantyhose, email me: sh2wph@yahoo Be sure to include "Buy Pantyhose" in the subject. I'll get back to you.

Leggs In Pantyhose!

Keep watching!

There's more video of me wearing pantyhose to come.

I Need Socks

I need some new socks. I want women's slouch socks. They're hard to find these days. Most guy's aren't in search of women's socks to wear on a daily basis. One thing I've noticed is that people don't notice if I'm wearing women's socks. Why? Because socks are not noticed. But, the type of socks that you wear (when wearing shorts) do have a major affect on the look of your legs. I've found that the slouch/scrunchie style of socks add a sexual look to the legs.

Ask any leg man. If they've thought about it seriously.

It All Clothes and Pose.

Clothes and Pose.

The attached photo was taken in early 08.

Pictures and Video

It's really not that hard to photograph myself or video myself in front of a camera. The problem is finding time alone to do it. I work and my wife is usually home when I am. But, occasionally I can get away with it. Me wearing pantyhose and high heels in front of the camera. Alone.

Actually I think I do a pretty good job, especially with the video. That's easier. I started in front of a 35mm. Photography and modeling are two awesome things. I wish I could have used it differently.

I should be grateful that I'm able to do such a thing. But, as people. We always want a little more. Don't we?

See, I think I have an eye for photography. I feel that I know what looks good in front of the camera, even if it's me. What a laugh.

Something discreet would be so cool.

The attached picture was shot in Jan 09.

High Heels and Pantyhose.

Southeast Virginia

I Wish I Could Keep My Blog Fresh...

... I just don't have the privacy at home to write in my blog the way I'd like to.

It all revolves around the fantasy and fetish of pantyhose and legs with me. What turns me on when I see a hot girl? Her legs. If those legs just happen to be wearing pantyhose, it's a turn on. I'm old school. I know. but old school is sexier. That's my opinion. Pantyhose, high heels and a short skirt. Sexy? Hell Yeah! The girls in short skirts and dresses of the eighties are in my opinion, some of, if not the sexiest, women I've ever seen in my life.

I've tried to replicate that look in my videos. I've tried to make myself sexy, not in a masculine way, but in a femine way.

My wife doesn't want to play. So what am I left with? A fantasy.

A guy in pantyhose and high heels. Playing by himself.

Here I am: Jan 09.

An Accidental Self Portrait

I've had requests to show my face in my videos. Guess what? I'm not ready for that. But,

I did find that I caputred my shadow on video and I thought that it looked pretty cool.

From the picture, you can't tell that I'm wearing pantyhose, but I am.

This accidential video was shot on Sept 1, 2008. Geez I'm old.

Happy 2009 +5:10hrs

If anyone is still reading this. Thank You. Its early New Years Morning. I'm awake, the wife's is crashed and I am actually still up, drunk and wearing pantyhose. Happy New Year to all of the pantyhose fetishist's. Keep wearing. I know were an odd bunch, but typically harmless, so try not to fret it as I do.

The thing that I need to get over is that I feel that it makes me a "sissy" when the camera is aimed at me. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that I'm not trying to act feminine. I am. I'm hoping that the viewer will, momentarily, that that they're watching a video of a women. You know, the illusion. It's what I envision the woman that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with as. Hot legs, pantyhose and a sexy pair of pumps and the playfulness to show them off a little as we fumble through life and try to make the best of it.

Happy New Years Morning,

MC