Pantyhose Fetish: A Personal Story

A Personal Story.  That's all this blog is.  Every once in a while, I try to convey to the world what it's like to be me.  Most people are driven by the need (or want) for sex.  Personally, I want my wife to want me to just fuck me.  She doesn't.

How do I compensate without going over the deep end?  I shop for pantyhose and panties.  Every once in a while I buy a new pair then take them home and put them on.  It almost always turns me on.  But, I then take them off and go about my evening like everything's okay.   I don't tell my wife about it.  I just get up and go to work the next day.  About once every week or two, before I go to bed, I go into the bathroom and slip on a pair of pantyhose and my black high heel pumps and get myself off.  I masturbate.

On the weekends we have a few beers and watch some television shows that we've recorded.  We have a good time and enjoy each others company..  The thing is, lately as we've done this, instead of wearing tights like I've been wearing since the cool weather of fall set in, I've been wearing pantyhose around the house on the weekends.  Legg's Sheer Energy.  During the week, I've still been wearing opaque tights.  But on the weekends, it's been exclusively pantyhose.  I've been alternating between coffee and taupe shades. 

A psychologist would probably say that I'm acting out, and when I think about it, I know that that's exactly what I'm doing.  It's my personal little protest.  Don't get me wrong though.  Even if we were fucking several times a week.  I'd still want to wearing pantyhose and tights.  And let's not forget that I wear panties as my choice of underwear.  That's well beyond the routine stage.  In fact, I haven't worn a guy's pair of underwear in at least two, maybe three years.  Women's high cut panties.

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RED PUMPS

Several weeks a go at work I was told that I was needed to go out of town for a couple of days to help out with a project.  I would be driving about four hours north and staying in a hotel for a couple of nights and then driving home.  I was immediately excited at the opportunity because I knew that I'd be completely alone for two nights in a row and I'd be able to dress up and play around in front of the video camera with out the chance of my wife catching me.

I decided that I would need to buy something new to wear for my upcoming video sessions.  I've been wanting to buy a new pair of high heels for quite some time, but I've held off because I don't exactly have many places left to hide a new pair of shoes.  I've had four pairs of high heels for a while now.  I added the fourth pair about a year ago.  My red strappy sandals.

I know my wife knows about my black pumps.  She found them several years ago and told me so.  But since then, I added three more pairs.  I don't know whether or not she knows about them.  If she does, she's never mentioned it.  Part of me thinks that if she's ever seen them, she'd probably question me about them.  Then again, maybe she wouldn't.

I'm under the impression that she probably doesn't know.  Which is good.  But then again, if she doesn't, it's also potentially explosive.  She may find them at any moment and freak out and start yelling and screaming.

So, with my upcoming work trip scheduled for a few weeks down the road, I ordered a new pair of pumps from an online store. A pair of red pumps.  I'd figure out a place to hide them from my wife later.  I wanted a brand new pair of red stiletto high heel pumps.

I knew that it would take at least a week to ten days before my new shoes would arrive.  I realized right after I placed the order that I had messed up the address.  Then, my trip was canceled.  When I finally got the shoes, they were too big and I knew I had to return them.  It figures.

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WEEKEND PICTURES

For quite a while now I'll try to take some pictures of myself wearing pantyhose and various outfits each weekend.  I wait until she's gone to bed and is sleeping soundly.  The I pose and try to show off my legs.

My goal is to post them on this blog.  The biggest problem is that I want to tell the story behind each of my "photo shoots" as I post them.  What usually happens is that I run out of time to write the story.  I have to do it all before my wife wakes up for the day and see's what I'm doing on the computer.  Most weekends I run out of "private" computer time before I can post them.  Therefore I end up with a back log of pictures to post.

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I bought this sweater for my wife for Christmas.  A week after Christmas I couldn't help but to slip into a bra and try it on.  These pictures were actually taken New Years Day in the early morning hours.

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WEARING A BRA

Five or six years ago I took a long look at the pictures that I'd been taking and realized that I needed to enhance my figure somewhat.  What had always been my motivation for taking pictures of myself?   

To take a picture of my legs that looks like a pair of women's sexy legs.


To do it I needed to wear a bra and look like I had tits.  Otherwise, most pictures would look like a guy.  I needed to help distract the eye just a little.  How?  With the classic silhouette shape.  Just add a bra and stuff it.

So I went to Wal Mart and bought a couple of cheap white no under wire bras.  I never even considered wearing one of my wife's bras. Until a year or so ago, that is.  I convinced her that she needed a black bra.  She didn't have one.  She eventually bought a second one.  Suddenly, I became arroused at the thought of wearing one of her black bras as I posed in my pantyhose and high heels.  Hell.  A black bra and a black pair of come fuck me pumps could look good.

Next thing I knew, I was wearing one of her black bras any weekend that I could.  This included New Years 2012.

coffee colored tights by George

My first run in a pair of George tights

My wife's sexy sweater

Purple tights and my wife's new shirt

How many guy's do this?

It's just a fetish.  That's all it is.  It's a way to masturbate.  Almost every guy masturbates.  Most of of us that do, don't talk about it.  I do.

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I've mentioned that I have a lot of pictures of myself that I've never posted.  Here's some from the Fall of 2010.

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I'm wearing pantyhose in front of her now.  Again.  I've worn them in front of her before.  Over the years it's been an on again, off again sort of thing.  But this time is different.  She seems resolved to the fact of me wearing pantyhose.  All of this weekend my wardrobe has consisted of nothing more than a sweat shirt, a pair of pantyhose, panties and ladies slouch socks.  Some of the time I don't even wear socks.  I just walk around with stocking feet.

I haven't started wearing suntan hose in front of her yet.  That's the goal.  I've been wearing eith the coffee or taupe shades of Legg's Sheer Energy pantyhose.

Also, I've bought a few pairs of new panties recently.  This weekend I wore a brand new pair of Vassarette High Cut "Silken Heather" panties. Yellow.

I'm actually very lucky to be able to get away with what I wear.  I realize that there are a lot of guys with a pantyhose fetish that have to hide it completely from their wives.

Do you keep your fetish a secret?

The Continuing Evolution Of A Married Crossdresser

One year ago if you had told me that I'd be doing the things around the house that I'm doing now, I wouldn't have believed it. I'm wearing women's tights and sweat shirt around the house, with pantyhose and leg warmers lying on the bathroom counter. I just wear tights around the house in front of my wife. It sounds great. Doesn't it?

The reason I do it is because I can. The reason I ca is simply that our nonsexual relationship that we call a marriage has evolved into her not caring what I wear or look like. That is, as long as she can avoid having to face sex with me.

She absolutely will avoid the subject of sex. She refuses to talk about it. She never plays with the idea.

To her credit, she will wear pantyhose in front of me because she knows that I like it. But, she stops there. If I try to run my hand in her crotch, she pushes it away tells me to leave her alone.

What else can I do but further my masturbationary desires?

When I get off, I'm in a room alone. Why? Because my wife simply doesn't want to have a sexual relationship, with me, or, apparently anyone else.

I feel that she wishes that the whole idea of sex would simply vanish. She knows it exists, she just doesn't any part in such a thing.

So, I keep pushing the envelope with my "crossdressing". I openly leave pantyhose and panties out where she can see them. She never mentions them. Ever.

So what do I do? I buy a new piece of lingerie. Since we don't have a sexual relationship and she refuses to talk about it, or have one, why not push the envelop and see what she'll accept. Having pantyhose, high heels and panty's and a wife, is better than having pantyhose, and no wife at all.

Like I've said, she will wear pantyhose for me and let me admire her.

That's better than a lot of guy's have it.

Tights

It's been almost ten years since I told my wife that I have a pantyhose fetish. I was hoping that it would open up a door into our sexual relationship. It hasn't. She's tolerated it, and in a lot of ways, accepted it. Over ten years.

I used to wear pantyhose in front of her openly, and she accepted it. These day's, she reacts somewhat angrily when I wear them in front of her. So, I stuck to wearing a tee shirt and panties. It became my standard attire for our evenings. She became used to see me in nothing but a tee shirt and a pair of women's panties. That's usually what I wear around the house. She's used to seeing me with my legs shaved with only a pair of pink or blue, or whatever color panties on. She just accepts it. She doesn't make any comment at all. She just goes about our daily routine with me. As do I.

Keep in mind that I like shopping for women's clothes. I won't shop for any guy's clothes, but I will browse the lingerie section in a store without even thinking about it. I'm always looking for a good deal on something sexy. Women are programmed to do that. Guy's aren't.

The picture on the package caught my eye. Tights. They looked a to be a little bit high priced for me to buy them. Plus, they were footless. I've never worn anything footless. Something made me decide to give them a try.

Tights aren't sheer They are a heavier weight material. On the denier scale, these are probably somewhere in the 40 range.
Out of the blue and frustration, I wore my new black footless tights in front of her. She didn't even mention it. They really do keep me warm now that the weather has turned cold. And, she doesn't make fun of me. She let's me do my thing, without having sex with me. Keep in mind. She doesn't seem interested in having a sexual relationship with me, but, she'll accept me walking around the house wearing panties or, now, tights.

I really don't have it so bad. It could be so much worse.

These days, I'm wearing tights around the house. I found a pair of tights in a store, and because of the picture of the hot babe on the package I couldn't resist buying them. It's so much better that browsing online. They are so soft. And they are footless. I've never liked footless anything. Cover the feet in something sheer. Pantyhose, or maybe tights, and it turns me on, has always been a standard that I've abided by.

I started with black. She didn't say a word. I was expecting her to make some sort of comment, but she didn't. She let me get away with it. I've started dressing in nothing more than a sweat shirt, a pair of tights, and two pair of Hooters girl type socks. Some white, some pink and some other colors. When I find something that I think is sexy, I like to buy it in as many colors as I can.

Suddenly, I'm wearing tights.

I wore the black tights for a week without her making any comment. So after a week, I switched to a grey metallic pair. Once again, I wore them every day for a week. They really are comfortable in the house now that cold weather has set in.

Finally, I started wearing the purple pair. Here I am, a married guy that wears purple tights around the house in front of my wife. Even though, she doesn't look at me that way, I feel sexy.

It's Already Fall

Here it is, fall again. One more year. Of course I'm still sexually frustrated. Still married to a sexy woman that won't touch me, never wants sex and refuses to talk about it, to even really try.

I should have updated this blog sooner than this. I've been slack, I admit that. But, I am still carrying on with my fetish desires whenever I can. In other words, I'm a cross dresser with a big fetish for pantyhose. I like wearing them and I like to see women wear them. I'd rather see a women showing off her sexy legs in pantyhose and high heels than show me her tits. It's a "To each his own" thing. I like pantyhose.

I shot these pictures just a little while ago and I couldn't resist showing them to the world. I like to try and look sexy in pantyhose and high heels. Oh yeah, I also like to set up a camera and take pictures of myself when I do it. Weird? Yeah, kind of. But harmless.

One of My Lateset Videos

I'm a cross dresser. I'm married. My wife doesn't like sex, at all. In other words, she doesn't like sex, therefore, we don't have sex. How's that for honesty? So what do I do? I wear pantyhose behind her back whenever I can. Which isn't often. She's always at home when I am. So, I can't just slip into a pair whenever I want to. I have to wait for, or create, an opportunity whenever I can.

Please click on the video below to see what it's like to be a frustrated cross dresser, who's horny and wants to play. Keep in mind that as this video was shot, my wife was asleep in the other room. Just twenty feet away. This video was shot in late May 2010.

There is a typo at the end of this video. I am sh2wph on dailymotion.com

The Video That Broke The (You Tube) Camel's Back

I was surprised when this video turned out to be the one that got my kicked off of You Tube. I saw where they offered an appeal of the offending video. So I did, and lost.

I am on dailymotion.com as sh2wph. I only have a few videos up at this point. What I'm noticing is that I'm not getting many views. Let me know if anyone checks it out.

I'm also back on youtube.com youtube.com, this time under the name: mostlyleggs

More Bonus Video One Piece Bathing Suit

I thought I'd show part of the video that I can't show on YouTube. I've just finished another two week suspension from You Tube. I had another video removed. It's a total crock. The video that was complained about was completly harmless. But, it was removed. I'll probably post it here to show you later.

I'm so pissed off at You Tube that I'm considering looking for another video hosting site. I don't really like Xtube, I always have problems uploading.

Purple Lace Boy Shorts

This is some video that I shot last weekend, early morning. I just love these lacy boy shorts. As you can see, I really wasn't tucked all the way back. If you look close, you can see my little thing.

If you'd like to own these panties, let know, email me at:

sh2wph@yahoo.com

I'd like to sell them to help me buy more things so that I can keep my videos new and fresh. Look at it as a donation that helps keep my videos going.

This One Is For P.H.

Thank you.

My "S" curve.

Unedited Video

Because of the prudes that flag videos on youtube.com, I thought the full version of this video would be better on my blog. It's not too graphic, just a little naughty.

Also, I'm trying to sell some of mt used pantyhose. Let me know if you're interested.

My email is: sh2wph@yahoo.com

More details later.

11/09/2009

This was an an entry saved as a draft on 11/09/2009. I'm finally publishing it: 1/30 2010
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I've had new high heels for a while now. They were a gift from an internet friend.



Is it possible to take a break from wearing panyhose, even though my wife doesn't want sex? Well, all I can say is, "Maybe". Is that as close as I'll ever get? Well? Maybe. I just haven't felt like it would be a good idea to show (express) how strong my fetish is.

I may be at the point where I can talk to her. In other words I may be able to tell her how much I like wearing pantyhose. To tell her how stong my sexual urge is. She doesn't understand how strong sexual desire can be. How can she? She's never has a "horny" thought. At least not that I'm aware of.

What do I do? I keep going through the everyday motions. And, I try to let her know just how horny I am, without going too far and pissing her off.




Lately, I've been wearing only a pair of panties in front of her (as opposed to pantyhose and panties), without her saying a word about my fetish. She knows I have a stash of pantyhose that includes many pairs of panties, leotards and (as far as I know) one pair of high heeled pumps.

Since My Last Post

Sorry it's been so long since my last post. It's just that when I lost my original YouTube account it really set me back. I had just started advertising my pantyhose. That is, I had just decided to sell of some of my worn pantyhose and some of my lingerie. I rather sell them than throw them away and I felt that it could also give me a little extra money to buy some new things. I can't just go out and pick up new pantyhose and panties because money is tight and plus, my wife pays the bills and she sees every little expense. Another thing is the fact that I'm sort of running out of room. I've got a lot of panties and they're actually piling up a bit. I've been waiting for my wife to say something about them, but she hasn't. Yet.

I did have several people email me asking about my pantyhose. I was actually surprised when a few of them not only wanted to buy my pantyhose, but they also wanted me to get off in them first. But to top it off, a couple of "fans" offered to pay me to make a video of myself wearing the pantyhose so that they could watch me jerk off in them. I really hadn't expected that. But the idea really turned me on.

So I decided to charge one price for a pair of my used pantyhose. Then, another price for a pair of my cum stained pantyhose and yet another price to make a video of myself getting myself off in pantyhose. Honestly, it takes a lot of work to make the video. Don't forget that I'm married and it would all have to be done without my wife knowing.

I decided to do it. I just didn't realize how long it would take, It really turned out to be a lot of work and sneaking around trying not to get caught is not that easy, considering that it was all done while my wife was home asleep. There was no way I could do it during the week, so, it had to done on the weekends, which is traditionally my surf the web for pantyhose porn time.

I also ended up discovering that when it came time to record my videos on cd's to send out, my computer drive wouldn't work. That took me two weeks to fix.

Don't forget that I am back on YouTube. The last couple of weekends I have been adding some of my old videos tn my new account: n2collants

So that's why it's been so long since I last posted to this blog.

I'm Back On YouTube Under A New Name

If you're reading this you may know that up until recently I had over fifty videos of myself wearing pantyhose posted on YouTube. I'm thinking I was on there for at least a year and a half, maybe two years. I had over 1600 subscribers and had met a lot of really cool people that are also into pantyhose.

Then, my videos started getting "flagged" and the next thing I knew, my account was shut down. Permanently disabled.

What really gets me is that my videos aren't crude and don't show any nudity. They just show a guy wearing pantyhose and high heels. My thinking is that if you don't like them, don't watch them. If you do like such things, I hope you enjoy them.

Of course this happened right after I rented a post office box. I rented the box so that I can try to sell some of my used pantyhose. I'd like to sell some instead of throwing them away so that I can afford some new pantyhose and and maybe a new pair of stiletto heels or two. I'll talk a little more about that later.

Since my videos were shut down, I suddenly didn't have any way to communicate with fellow pantyhose lovers. I do have a couple of people that want to buy some of my pantyhose, but there seems to have been a hang up with the post office delivering their mail. It hasn't been a good couple of weeks in the pantyhose department for me lately.

To get my videos back up and running on YouTube I had to come up with a new screen name and a new email address. I actually did come up with a name and YouTube accepted it, but when I entered my email address for the account, YouTube immediately closed that account because recognized my good ol sh2wph@yahoo.com email address. I quickly realized that any new account would have to be linked to a new email address.

My new YouTube account name is: n2collants

My new email address linked to that account is: n2collants@yahoo.com

But, I would rather have people contact me at my usual sh2wph@yahoo.com address.

My Pantyhose, For Sale?

If you've seen my latest video on YouTube.com you probably know that I've been advertising about selling some of my used pantyhose. I decided to do this for several reasons.

First off, I hate to throw a pair of pantyhose away. Even if they have runs in them, they're still soft and sexy and feel great to wear. So, I've ended up with a cabinet full of pantyhose. But people always want more, and that includes me. What do I want? I want a new pair of stiletto heels and some new lingerie. The big problem is that I don't have the money to be able to buy anything new without my wife finding out. Like a lot of guys, I let her handle the finances without a word. Believe me, it's better that way. The downside is that she knows when I spend any money and what it's being spent on. She would not be happy if I spent $40 on a pair of new sexy pumps for myself. So for me to able to buy anything, it has to be behind her back.

Over the last couple of years, I've had a lot of people ask about me sending them some of my pantyhose or panties. Why not? I've got a lot.

So the idea was born.

If you'd be interested in buying some, email me at: sh2wph@yahoo.com

Include, "Buy pantyhose" in the subject line.

Another thing, some guys have asked about me making personalized videos for them while wearing pantyhose and playing with myself. People actually want to see me jerk off in my pantyhose and send them the video and the pantyhose.

If you'd be interested in that let me know.

Leave a comment on this blog and email me.