Trying A Comeback

 

Still Here, Just Busy

I know, I know. I've only made three short posts in over a year. I really do apologize for that. There are a couple of reasons why things have been so quiet around here, and I figured I owed you all an explanation.

First off, the home situation hasn't changed much. My PC is still centrally located in our living room, and since my wife doesn't know about the blog and definitely wouldn't approve, I have to keep everything hidden. She can easily walk by and look over my shoulder at any moment, so my private computer time is extremely limited. I know I used to write more frequently, but over the last several years things have changed and that private time has decreased dramatically.

The other big change is my job. After Covid, I switched jobs and since then I've been traveling like crazy for work. I'm on the road anywhere from 1 to 4 nights a week, sometimes more. It's rare that I'm not traveling at all these days.

Now, you might think, "Perfect! You have a laptop when you travel, plenty of time to write!" Well, here's the thing - my company owns that laptop. I've never felt comfortable using it for the blog because I'm just not sure what they can see. So I haven't.

 

Life at Home

For those who've been following along, my wife still knows about my pantyhose fetish. I've been wearing them openly in front of her for quite a few years now, and about 10 years ago I also started openly wearing ballet flats around her too. Does it turn her on? Not at all. She simply tolerates it.

I should mention - my marriage is really good. Everything except for sex, honestly. We get along really well. She's actually my best friend. Since our sex life is basically non-existent anyway, I figure it's better to wear pantyhose openly in front of her and not have sex, as opposed to not wearing pantyhose and still not having sex. You know what? To this day, it's still a thrill to wear them.

I've always been a leg man - there's something about seeing legs in pantyhose that I find incredibly appealing. Since that's not something you see much anymore these days, I guess I've found my own way to appreciate and create that aesthetic for myself.

I think it comes down to this: I like wearing what I like seeing women wear. Since I don't have a wife that shows off her legs in pantyhose and high heels, I wear pantyhose and high heels myself. In a way, I'm my own substitute. Don't get me wrong, even if she did wear sexy lingerie, I'd still wear these things, but that's my excuse, so I'll stick with it.

Side note: I bought so many pairs of ballet flats that she finally got a little irritated and told me not to buy anymore. It didn't stop me completely, but I've only bought a couple of pairs since she said that.

 

Hotel Life

Being alone in hotel rooms has its perks. I do get to dress up in the evenings, and even though I can't pass and have never tried to, I can wear high heels and slip on a stuffed bra. I'm still using the water balloon method, warming them up in the microwave. I not only enjoy the way they bounce and jiggle, but that warmth feels amazing.

I also have the opportunity to take pictures, which I do. But here's the catch - I work such long hours that by evening I'm almost always too tired to set everything up and shoot. So what have I been doing instead? I try to take pictures in the mornings.

My typical routine: I wake up, grab coffee, read a little news, then get breakfast. Afterward, I'll set up my camera and start taking some shots. But just when I'm really getting into it and things are flowing, it's time to go to work. I have to wrap everything up, pack, check out of the hotel, head to work, and then either go home or move on to the next city and hotel. Generally I'm only in a city for one night, so there just isn't a lot of time to spare.

Every once in a while I'll stay several nights in a row in the same hotel, and that's when I have more time to play around. I don't have to pack up and move on constantly. I can actually leave high heels and a bra laying out in the open. Of course, when I do that, there's always that nagging worry in the back of my mind that housekeeping might come in and see my lingerie laying about.

As for my wife, she actually found a pair of my high heels many years ago, so I know she knows that I have some. She just doesn't know how many pairs I actually have. I'm also pretty sure she's seen a bra or two of mine laying around as well, but it's not something that's ever talked about. These things are kind of an open secret. I definitely don't wear them in front of her though.

What I'm Up To These Days

I know I used to shoot videos and post them on YouTube and occasionally here on the blog, but these days I've concentrated solely on still photography. The problem is, since I keep my pictures on my home computer and edit them there, I run into the same privacy issues with my wife. There just isn't a lot of time when I can work on them without worrying about being interrupted.

So that's where things stand. I'm still here, still enjoying the lifestyle when I can, still taking photos when time permits. I haven't abandoned this space - life has just gotten more complicated and time has gotten scarcer.

For the last few years I have been posting some pictures online on FetLife under the name n2collants. If you want to see some of the pictures I've taken over the last few years, you can find me there.

On FetLife, I can see that there are a lot of guys like me. Most people show their location. I've considered trying to find another guy with the same fetish as myself to possibly meet and hang out and dress up together, but the few I've contacted really haven't been compatible, plus the logistics of it are a bit complicated to try and work out discretely. I've considered trying to find someone locally and even considered trying to find someone in a city that I travel to for work somewhat regularly, but the logistics of that are almost impossible considering I don't always know where I'm going to be. If that makes any sense.

I'll try to post more regularly when I can, and I'll share some photos from my travels soon.

Thanks for sticking around.

I'm Not Just A Guy With A Pantyhose Fetish

For the longest time I thought I was simply a guy with a pantyhose fetish.  The thing is, I seem to be a little more than that.  At least it's been that way for the last fifteen years or so.

I bought my first pair of high heels when I was in my twenties.  

In the 90's there were a couple of nationwide shoe stores.  There was "Pic N' Pay" and Payless.  They weren't the traditional style shoe stores with sales people that would measure your feet and then disappear in to the stock room to get your shoe in your size.  

 At these stores, there wasn't any salesman to assist you.  You walked in and helped yourself.

That meant that a man could browse the women's shoe section without really drawing attention.  Of course, you still had to pay the person at the checkout register.  Which was a little embarrassing back in those days.

Some Recent Pictures

 I wish I had more time to write but it's the still the same old story.  I don't have much "private" time with the computer at home.

I Don't Know If I'm Still Going Strong, But I'm Still Going

 After all of these years, I still play the role of a part time cross dresser. I wear pantyhose every chance I get.  

I'm still traveling for work several time every month.  A lot of guys do.  I see other guys in the mornings in the hotel breakfast room.  What separates them from me is that I'm wearing a bra and pantyhose under my hoodie and jeans while they are not. They never know

Another thing that separates me from other guys is the fact that when I leave home for a couple of days, I'm usually traveling with three or four pairs of high heels.

When I'm alone in my hotel room, I usually where pantyhose along with a bra stuffed with warm water balloons.  I know it sounds weird, because it is.  But, it feels damn good and it makes me feel sexy at the same time.

 

 

 

Cross Dressing In Hotels (March 17,2024)

 

 Here's another draft I just found written on March 17, 2024.

My job requires me to travel several times each month.  A lot of people do.   What separates me from most is that I enjoy wearing women's clothes.   

Holiday Update Dec 23, 2023

 This was was uploaded as a draft on  December 23, 2023,  It's finally posted.  I haven't signed in to this account in a long time.

 

 

 

Fall 2023

When I first started traveling overnights for work, I was excited that I'd be able to dress up the way that I wanted to without my wife seeing me.  I'd be able to take some girly pictures while making my own version of slightly sexy pictures.  I've had a penchant for trying to look like a woman showing off her legs.

Typically, when I'd finished my days work, I'd check into the hotel.  Quickly shower.  Set up my camera.  Slip into pantyhose, put on a bra and some water balloon boobs, then take some pictures of myself.

If you look quickly at the picture below you'll see a woman in black pantyhose.  Of course it's not a woman.  It's a guy.

 

It's a little different these days.  I still shower and put on pantyhose and a bra.  It's just that it's rare for me to take pictures in the evenings these days while I'm away from home.  The main reason these days is that I'm simply too tired.

Almost all of my hotel pictures are taken early in the mornings these days.  Usually, it's not until I start my second cup of coffee.  Just after I call my wife to tell her good morning

In Another Hotel Room

 These days I don't always take pictures when I'm traveling, but I always dress up.

Pink High Heel Pumps

 I bought these pink pumps a few months ago.  Honestly, they aren't very comfortable, but they are really sexy.

 

 

Hotel Coffee

When traveling I typically have my first cup of coffee around 0530.  I always dress for the occasion.

 

 

 

Another

 Here's one.  It's from December 2018.  The Archives.  I like it.  I just stumbled upon these flats in my closet.  I haven't worn them in a quite a while.

Still Wearing Pantyhose

As you may have noticed, I've slowed down on posting to my blog.  I want to assure you that it's simply because of time constraints due to my long work hours.  I still wear pantyhose every evening and I still take pictures regularly.

 

Here's a few that I've taken recently.

 

 

Hanging Out In My Hotel

 As mentioned before, I travel often for work these days.  I almost always carry more women's clothes with me than men's.  Most of the time I've got one pair of men's shoes and as many as five or six pairs of women's shoe's.  When I'm in the room I'm almost always wearing a stuffed bra and pantyhose.

I'm usually to busy with work and too tired to takes any pictures in the evenings but I'm still dressed.  In the mornings I usually take some pictures after my first cup of coffee.  It's a fun way to start my day.

Here are some of my most recent photos.  If you have time, leave a comment.

I'm Still Trying To Take A Hot Picture

One day, when I was a teenager, I put on a pair of pantyhose.  I then set up a camera on a tripod and took pictures of myself wearing pantyhose.  I tried to pose so that I looked like a girl with sexy legs.

Many decades later, I'm stilling doing it.

I'm not in my teens anymore but I still take pictures of myself wearing women's clothes.

These days I travel often for work.  When I do, I usually take my camera and tripod.  I also take an assortment of lingerie and usually several pairs of high heels and ballet flats.

I'm still trying to pose like a woman.  Some times the pictures look pretty decent.  Here are some recent shots.  I hope you like them.

 

 

A Little Update

I've been trying to find the time when traveling lately to take more pictures.  What I've realized is that I rarely take any pictures at home these days.  For the most part it's all in hotels.  Keep in mind that even if I'm taking pictures when traveling I'm always dressed in pantyhose and a stuffed bra.  It's simply what I wear when I'm alone in hotels.

On a related note.  I've just bought myself a new pair of black stiletto 5 inch pumps.  I have two old pairs that I've actually worn out.  I hate the idea of just throwing them in the trash.  I've had so much fun wearing them over the years and wearing them when I've jerked off.  I honestly can't count how many orgasms I've had while wearing them.  I'm wondering if anyone out there would be interested in buying them.  One of the pairs is actually from Frederick's Of Hollywood which I believe stopped selling shoes many years ago so that kind of makes them shoes that you can't get anymore.  A bit of a collectors item.  I won't be asking a lot for them. Maybe twenty bucks a pair plus shipping.  Let me know if you're interested.  One of the pairs are in the photos below.

 

 

It's Been A While

I'm still traveling a lot for work.  For most of my travels, I drive.  I might drive three or fours from home to work.  Then, I check into my hotel.  I usually make it to whatever hotel I'm staying in between 5 and 6pm.  I unpack my things I almost always shower.  At his point, I'll put on a pair of pantyhose and my black bra.  After my shower it's time to figure out what I'm going to have for dinner.  If you've read my blog you'll know that I always stuff my bra with water balloons.  I still put them in the microwave oven and warm them up.  And that's what I wear in the hotel. 

I usually order take out from a nearby restaurant, so I'll get dressed to go pick up my dinner.  I put on a pair of women's jeans and on occasion, I'll wear a pair of ballet flats.  Sometimes I'll leave my bra on under my shirt (without the balloons).  I don't always wear flats but when I do, it's such a rush.  It's a bit scary, but it's fun when I do.  I want people to see me wearing my ballet flats but then again,  I'm scared that they will notice.

I usually take my camera and tripod, but these days, I don't take as many pictures as I used to.  Usually I'm simply too tired and I go to bed early.  There are times when I'll go several weeks without taking any pictures.

These days, I wear pantyhose openly at home.  My wife almost never sees me without pantyhose.  On top of that, I'm always wearing crotchless.  Most of the time I wear L'eggs Sheer Energy which I've cut the crotch out of.  It sounds a bit crazy but it's true.  I walk around at home wearing pantyhose with my dick literally hanging out.  There is a little more to the story than that, which I'm not going to get into now, but it is one hundred percent true.  My dick is always hanging out of my pantyhose when I'm home.

This also translates over to hotels.  The pantyhose that I wear in my hotel room usually has the crotch cut out.  Now, when I take my camera with me I always take clothes, additional pantyhose and shoes with me.  When I dress specifically for photo shoots, I usually wear European hosiery that does not have the crotch cut out.

Here's the thing, a lot of the time if I decide to just take a few pictures, I don't really get dressed up.  I simply set up the camera and snap a few.  In these, my dick is hanging out.  So, as it turns out, a lot of the time, the majority of my pictures show my dick.

Although I've shown my dick on many occasions on my blog, I don't know if I want the majority of my blog posts to show my little toy.  I'd like to hear feedback from viewers on this but I also realize that my blog doesn't have many viewers these days.  But if you care to, let me know what you think about this.  Doe's seeing my dick on my blog add or detract from my pantyhose fetish blog?

The bottom set of pictures below where you can see my bra were taken last week.  They are the most recent pictures that I've taken.

I hope you enjoy and aren't offended.

 

A Black Bra

These days I travel frequently for work.  When I'm alone in my hotel room I'm almost always dressed in a pair of pantyhose and and a bra.  Over the years I've developed a fetish for bras as well.  When I first started wearing bras it was simply for pictures.  I felt that it would help add to the feminine illusion that I try to accomplish in photos.  A flat chest is a dead giveaway that it's a guy.  

 These days it's just part of my cross dressing attire.

Many years ago I bought several bras for myself.  A few sports bras and and few that would probably be classified as training bras.  Since then I've worn them more and more.  

 As I've mentioned before I "stuff" them with water balloons.  They're suprizingly sturdy and they do hold up well when heated up in the microwave oven.  Which I especially like to do in winter.  Despite what you might think, they don't burst when heated.

What I haven't until recently was a black bra.  Over the years, any time I've worn a black bra, it's been one of my wife's.  I've never made a habit of wearing her clothes.  I did take a one piece bathing suit of hers years a go and then once in a while I'd wear one of her black bras.  Other than that, I haven't worn her things.

Recently, while out of town.  I had some extra time and stopped by a Wal Mart to shop for a black bra.  I have to admit that I still become a little nervous when I browse the bra section of a department store.  I guess because it's the one item that is one hundred percent for a woman and I don't think it's an item that a man normally buys for a wife or a girlfriend. I feel that I might as well have a sign hanging around my neck stating, "I'm a cross dresser and I'm trying to find a bra to wear".  

I was surprised that I was able to find one that I liked and it was also reasonably priced. Soon, I was heading back to my hotel room to try on my new black bra.  I was truly excited.

Moments

 

 

 Moments like this are around us constantly.

 

Look for them.

 

 This picture was taken before "Covid".  This was shot in 2019.