Trying A Comeback

 

Still Here, Just Busy

I know, I know. I've only made three short posts in over a year. I really do apologize for that. There are a couple of reasons why things have been so quiet around here, and I figured I owed you all an explanation.

First off, the home situation hasn't changed much. My PC is still centrally located in our living room, and since my wife doesn't know about the blog and definitely wouldn't approve, I have to keep everything hidden. She can easily walk by and look over my shoulder at any moment, so my private computer time is extremely limited. I know I used to write more frequently, but over the last several years things have changed and that private time has decreased dramatically.

The other big change is my job. After Covid, I switched jobs and since then I've been traveling like crazy for work. I'm on the road anywhere from 1 to 4 nights a week, sometimes more. It's rare that I'm not traveling at all these days.

Now, you might think, "Perfect! You have a laptop when you travel, plenty of time to write!" Well, here's the thing - my company owns that laptop. I've never felt comfortable using it for the blog because I'm just not sure what they can see. So I haven't.

 

Life at Home

For those who've been following along, my wife still knows about my pantyhose fetish. I've been wearing them openly in front of her for quite a few years now, and about 10 years ago I also started openly wearing ballet flats around her too. Does it turn her on? Not at all. She simply tolerates it.

I should mention - my marriage is really good. Everything except for sex, honestly. We get along really well. She's actually my best friend. Since our sex life is basically non-existent anyway, I figure it's better to wear pantyhose openly in front of her and not have sex, as opposed to not wearing pantyhose and still not having sex. You know what? To this day, it's still a thrill to wear them.

I've always been a leg man - there's something about seeing legs in pantyhose that I find incredibly appealing. Since that's not something you see much anymore these days, I guess I've found my own way to appreciate and create that aesthetic for myself.

I think it comes down to this: I like wearing what I like seeing women wear. Since I don't have a wife that shows off her legs in pantyhose and high heels, I wear pantyhose and high heels myself. In a way, I'm my own substitute. Don't get me wrong, even if she did wear sexy lingerie, I'd still wear these things, but that's my excuse, so I'll stick with it.

Side note: I bought so many pairs of ballet flats that she finally got a little irritated and told me not to buy anymore. It didn't stop me completely, but I've only bought a couple of pairs since she said that.

 

Hotel Life

Being alone in hotel rooms has its perks. I do get to dress up in the evenings, and even though I can't pass and have never tried to, I can wear high heels and slip on a stuffed bra. I'm still using the water balloon method, warming them up in the microwave. I not only enjoy the way they bounce and jiggle, but that warmth feels amazing.

I also have the opportunity to take pictures, which I do. But here's the catch - I work such long hours that by evening I'm almost always too tired to set everything up and shoot. So what have I been doing instead? I try to take pictures in the mornings.

My typical routine: I wake up, grab coffee, read a little news, then get breakfast. Afterward, I'll set up my camera and start taking some shots. But just when I'm really getting into it and things are flowing, it's time to go to work. I have to wrap everything up, pack, check out of the hotel, head to work, and then either go home or move on to the next city and hotel. Generally I'm only in a city for one night, so there just isn't a lot of time to spare.

Every once in a while I'll stay several nights in a row in the same hotel, and that's when I have more time to play around. I don't have to pack up and move on constantly. I can actually leave high heels and a bra laying out in the open. Of course, when I do that, there's always that nagging worry in the back of my mind that housekeeping might come in and see my lingerie laying about.

As for my wife, she actually found a pair of my high heels many years ago, so I know she knows that I have some. She just doesn't know how many pairs I actually have. I'm also pretty sure she's seen a bra or two of mine laying around as well, but it's not something that's ever talked about. These things are kind of an open secret. I definitely don't wear them in front of her though.

What I'm Up To These Days

I know I used to shoot videos and post them on YouTube and occasionally here on the blog, but these days I've concentrated solely on still photography. The problem is, since I keep my pictures on my home computer and edit them there, I run into the same privacy issues with my wife. There just isn't a lot of time when I can work on them without worrying about being interrupted.

So that's where things stand. I'm still here, still enjoying the lifestyle when I can, still taking photos when time permits. I haven't abandoned this space - life has just gotten more complicated and time has gotten scarcer.

For the last few years I have been posting some pictures online on FetLife under the name n2collants. If you want to see some of the pictures I've taken over the last few years, you can find me there.

On FetLife, I can see that there are a lot of guys like me. Most people show their location. I've considered trying to find another guy with the same fetish as myself to possibly meet and hang out and dress up together, but the few I've contacted really haven't been compatible, plus the logistics of it are a bit complicated to try and work out discretely. I've considered trying to find someone locally and even considered trying to find someone in a city that I travel to for work somewhat regularly, but the logistics of that are almost impossible considering I don't always know where I'm going to be. If that makes any sense.

I'll try to post more regularly when I can, and I'll share some photos from my travels soon.

Thanks for sticking around.

I'm Not Just A Guy With A Pantyhose Fetish

For the longest time I thought I was simply a guy with a pantyhose fetish.  The thing is, I seem to be a little more than that.  At least it's been that way for the last fifteen years or so.

I bought my first pair of high heels when I was in my twenties.  

In the 90's there were a couple of nationwide shoe stores.  There was "Pic N' Pay" and Payless.  They weren't the traditional style shoe stores with sales people that would measure your feet and then disappear in to the stock room to get your shoe in your size.  

 At these stores, there wasn't any salesman to assist you.  You walked in and helped yourself.

That meant that a man could browse the women's shoe section without really drawing attention.  Of course, you still had to pay the person at the checkout register.  Which was a little embarrassing back in those days.

Some Recent Pictures

 I wish I had more time to write but it's the still the same old story.  I don't have much "private" time with the computer at home.

I Don't Know If I'm Still Going Strong, But I'm Still Going

 After all of these years, I still play the role of a part time cross dresser. I wear pantyhose every chance I get.  

I'm still traveling for work several time every month.  A lot of guys do.  I see other guys in the mornings in the hotel breakfast room.  What separates them from me is that I'm wearing a bra and pantyhose under my hoodie and jeans while they are not. They never know

Another thing that separates me from other guys is the fact that when I leave home for a couple of days, I'm usually traveling with three or four pairs of high heels.

When I'm alone in my hotel room, I usually where pantyhose along with a bra stuffed with warm water balloons.  I know it sounds weird, because it is.  But, it feels damn good and it makes me feel sexy at the same time.

 

 

 

Cross Dressing In Hotels (March 17,2024)

 

 Here's another draft I just found written on March 17, 2024.

My job requires me to travel several times each month.  A lot of people do.   What separates me from most is that I enjoy wearing women's clothes.   

Holiday Update Dec 23, 2023

 This was was uploaded as a draft on  December 23, 2023,  It's finally posted.  I haven't signed in to this account in a long time.

 

 

 

Fall 2023

When I first started traveling overnights for work, I was excited that I'd be able to dress up the way that I wanted to without my wife seeing me.  I'd be able to take some girly pictures while making my own version of slightly sexy pictures.  I've had a penchant for trying to look like a woman showing off her legs.

Typically, when I'd finished my days work, I'd check into the hotel.  Quickly shower.  Set up my camera.  Slip into pantyhose, put on a bra and some water balloon boobs, then take some pictures of myself.

If you look quickly at the picture below you'll see a woman in black pantyhose.  Of course it's not a woman.  It's a guy.

 

It's a little different these days.  I still shower and put on pantyhose and a bra.  It's just that it's rare for me to take pictures in the evenings these days while I'm away from home.  The main reason these days is that I'm simply too tired.

Almost all of my hotel pictures are taken early in the mornings these days.  Usually, it's not until I start my second cup of coffee.  Just after I call my wife to tell her good morning